*Firstly* I accomplished further editing now, the day after posting…I have to stop posting before enacting final editing! I get SO fed up (I’m done!!) when composing that I go ahead and post….:/

While composing the piece below, which describes my lack of reviewing PAST posts, that same truth (my lack of review) crept into the piece I was composing at the time. Well hello again, vastly diminished attention span initiated by my critical Traumatic brain Injury. We shall see if I uniquely follow my own advice this time & enact a final edit before posting…

I must stay committed to my employment of patience.

Great thing is, after an action or reaction is repeated numerous times, it sticks. Yep, that’s my *great thing!* presently. All in context…

So, here’s an edited & undoubtably better version:

Enjoy

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Redundancy

All too frequently, do I employ is this tendency of mine presently. My inherently abbreviated attention & overwhelming memory loss in combination with my lacking impulse control = redundancy.

“Executive function involves skills such as planning, motivation, multi-tasking, flexible thinking, monitoring performance, memory, self-awareness, and detecting and correcting mistakes” – Headway

Since the prefrontal lobe – which I damaged severely – is in charge of executive functions, such as the aforementioned, this damage is a culprit of my redundancy. This impairment, lies in tandem with the overwhelming initiator: my lacking memory. I’m bound to repeat something when I don’t remember previously addressing it!

I do ATTEMPT to scout for repetition but fairly instantaneous dismissal ensues…long before I even finish reading 1 post! In fact, reviewing past posts of mine, is unappealing to me, with a fervor currently. Hmmm there is a name for this: Attention Deficit Disorder. My parents and I were warned upon my final hospital discharge. We weren’t warned of the potentiality that I had newly developed ADD but of the inevitability that a critical Traumatic Brain Injury survivor would newly (at least for me it was) have ADD.

My late onset ADD lies in tandem with the knowledge that consistent reviewing/editing is always needed. My desire to compose anew vs. knowing to edit in full, lie in direct conflict. Reading numerous posts of mine, prior to composing anew, requires sustained focus. Sadly, utilizing part of my presently hugely abbreviated attention-span to review, robs me of a substantial subset of focused attention that I need to compose. I prioritize composition!

Unwise…I acknowledge

Damaging the prefrontal cortex is quite common resulting from accidents, as the prefrontal cortex lies at the forefront of the head, just as the name suggests.

There certainly IS a point in re-reading past posts of mine in full prior to composing anew, but my lacking patience, motivation & focus…prohibit this.

“First, memory has a limited capacity, and thus attention determines what will be encoded. Division of attention during encoding prevents the formation of conscious memories.” –Science Direct

It’s only sensible given that both my memory and attention are significantly impaired simultaneously presently. Therefore, both are necessitating betterment currently and luckily, they are bettered in tandem.

Just now, I attempted to review past posts of mine (I’m writing of not doing so now! A bit of increased motivation…) but still, if I don’t find familiar subject matter within the initial minute subset (title & first few lines) I think: there’s no familiar content…before near completion of reading the post. My attention is then redirected…

I MUST remember that with time & practice, my redundancy will lessen, as it has already begun to do. I can’t wait until it’s extinguished, or perhaps,n in reality, severely lessened. My healing progess, given my unexpected successes thus far, promotes hope superbly.

Further truth which offers great encouragement -> Every aspect of the brain is interconnected. Resultantly, a huge alleviation present within my recovery, is that I better 1 aspect of my brain and indirectly better others, as is true with memory, attention & focus.

I can now realize the truth of my attention aggrandizing with time, FINALLY! But of course, there’s substantially more to go….