When you very nearly kill your brain, I suppose this grandeur of recovery is to be expected. It’s certainly not welcome however. It’s bullocks!!
Newly, I’m technically within the 2nd phase of my healing. I just (a year and 1/2 ago) finished, what’s considered by medical professionals, to be my first phase (10 years) of recovery. This initial phase, neurologists attest, is when the largest components of re-learning to live take place & I will second that! I finished this first phase mighty quickly, compared to the expectations of specialists & the vast majority of other survivors within my severity class: critical. I completed my first phase of heeling far more speedily even than the vast majority of survivors with severities ascending in severity: Severe & critical.
This is still, and I’m guessing, forever will be, hard for me to believe. Recovery from this disability (the formation of new mental pathways, that’ll enable achieving the same end result), is immensely sluggish. It definitely feels as if I should’ve be done long ago! Granted, I’d be vastly disappointed if my current abilities were the extent of my healing. All things considered, I welcome the fact that new research attests recovery from a TBI to be lifelong.
I have a front row seat to witnessing the tremendous & extensive work which has enabled my recovery thus far, but I still will continue regaining a plethora of skills as long as I continue activating my brain. I continue to learn (from my psychologist) that I’ve surpassed numerous phases, within the timeframe allocated for 1 phase. Completion of my 1st phase, in the time that did (3 years) is 1 such example.
Now, relearning the complexities of my chosen aspects of reclamation has begun to take place.
This truth exhausts me, but simultaneously, thank goodness! I want a life which is enabled by further capabilities again! This new life, will not at all be like my life pre-TBI, but my desires & inclinations simultaneously differ grandly, so this truth seems appropriate. I can & do love my old existence & I now foresee adoring my new existence simultaneously in time. I have reached acceptance of my current reality & do now know that in the near future, this comparing of my previous life with my present 1, will lessen grandly. The comparisons already have begun lessening substantially…so that’s a great sign!
A few old friends have stuck with me! This includes 3 friends of mine, whom I made pre-recovery…I will say (very humbly;) that I propose, this being due to my inclination to befriend very emotionally mature individuals.