Present

In this blog I have, thus far (as you may have noticed), focused largely on my initial recovery. The subject of my posts, as a result, have primarily been regarding past events. Writing of my initial recovery has been very therapeutic for me, as inceptive recovery was a tremendously sorrowful & all-encompassing past-time. Explaining it, has been a way for me to defuse it.

I will now write largely of my present experiences. When appropriate, I’ll amend past posts to include realizations which have resulted from comparing past to present capabilities/activities of mine. This will elucidate my healing progress further.

Given that the details of memories I obtained during my time residing in SF, are only recently resurfacing, inevitably, I’ll regress to recounting them, on occasion. That is, when I recall relevant or exciting (that I suspect will be interesting to my audience) subjects, I will relay them to you.

I’ll reach 8 of the 10 years suspected by my doctors to be my initial stage of recovery on July 1 of this year. My psychiatrist of 7 1/2 years (always gotta wait for the specialist! She’s in high demand & rightly so. Im overjoyed to have waited.) last we spoke, restated that which she’s told me before, after I asked her of the expected return of memories, by survivors.

“You’re inventing your own new-norm now”.

I must concede, that my recovery has proven & continues to prove, this statement of hers to be true. Achievements within my recovery continue to be anomalies (I am doing far more advanced & independent things than any of my medical professionals expected).

For instance: Right now, I’m able to read multiple books at a time (as I used to) without getting the plots or characters of the books confused. This reclamation is such a relief to me!! I was feeling so very lonely until recently. Previously, I attributed this largely to the reality that I was torn from my close friends in SanFrancisco.

This was true, in part, but I’ve now begun to revel in the time I spend solitarily once again & reclaim the joy I’ve always found in it. As a result, I can choose how I’d like to spend my time! Many of the things, that I choose & have chosen all of my life to do, are in fact solitary activities (like constructing these blog posts), which makes me sublimely happy.

Here’s to the present & future!