The vast majority of my mental memories were completely absent for the first 7.5 years of my recovery, as a result of my critical TBI. Therefore, I didn’t believe, even slightly, that any memories of mine would resurface. Surprisingly & very thankfully, I was wrong!
I acquired undoubtable proof, years ago, that my physical memories were still present. They’re far less effected by my Traumatic Brain Injury than my mental recollections (which is only sensible). I have my esteemed yoga therapist & past client of mine from Seattle, who first made me aware of this, to thank!
I was extremely saddened initially as a result of being unable to remember any yoga poses and certainly not sequences. My grand fondness of yoga remains, which my many years of weekly practice (or multiple practices a week, when my work schedule allowed) in SF. Then multiple opportunities to practice per day, (formally or informally – we were a bunch of yogis, after all!) for 1 month at the yoga retreat. Yet, once I began moving, with an extremely knowledgeable yoga therapist present: Robin Rothenberg, to guide me through the necessary adaptations, my basic recall of yoga returned, as she said it likely would!
Currently, my motivation to practice routinely, independently, for any substantial length is severely dampened. It’s not as though physical limitations prohibit me from practicing nor does a lack of interest! My lack of attention and motivation does. I lose interest after 15 minutes or so or am not compelled to do the 5 minute setup prior to beginning.
An advisor of mine, 2 days ago, gave me an extremely rational plan for altering my practice routine. Her advice: instead of solely practicing when awaking, if I’m not at all inclined to, practice whenever I’m called to! This is a far more enticing than forgoing yoga altogether, when I’m not inclined to practice first thing in the morning, which is strongly advised due to having an empty stomach at that time. Though this is certainly still ideal, I’m only driven to do so a few times per week. It’s also far more enticing than my usual: employing self chastisement. All is a building process now. Allowing myself time to regain motivation & practice as much as I’m inclined to presently, will be most effective for large-scale practice reformation. After all, motivation has thus far been, and still is, my most lacking capability currently. Practicing when I’m inclined, will incentivize adoption of my desired daily practice routine. I’m confident (and this confidence was supported by multiple counselors of mine) that daily practice will ensue, eventually.
The adoption of prolific patience continues to be a neccesary struggle for me amidst this extensive recovery!