It’s quite well known (amongst professionals who specialize in Traumatic Brain Injuries) that survivors, of any great severity of TBI, lack fore-site.
For instance: I begin cooking, when I’m hungry! A severe brain injury sets a survivor waaaay back, in, essentially, everything. Beginning to cook when I’m hungry, simulates immaturity. I must re-realize the obvious reality that it takes time to prepare food: foresight.
When living in SanFrancisco (my previously chosen residence) I was content beginning my day by eating toast (at times with peanut butter ((When I craved a bit more protein))) & a hard boiled egg for breakfast…among a few other choices that required very little preparation. I had many things to do, places to be & people to see! Time was a precious commodity which felt scarce. I greatly preferred engaging in the ample available activity!
Currently I enjoy food preparation, substantially more, have far more time on my hands and am craving things be made in a way that specifically appeals to me. To actualize this, I need to make my own food! I still have allot of learning to do, no doubt, but the desire exists.
This, however, is true of so many things…Where is my motivation to enact these desires of mine!?
Oh right, it was robbed of me, (along with the vast majority of all else!) when my head & therefore brain smashed into a light pole at free-way speeds.
But I’m still present & desire is the first step (Tese has done amazingly at helping me value this necessary, initial step). We’ll see how long it takes to move to the 2nd step. All is a crap-shoot. Everyone’s brain is entirely individualistic (This reality makes life so beautiful!), so, even professionals can’t foresee how long moving from 1 step to the next will take.
But hey – it’s progression. That fulfills me, FINALLY, in & of itself. Not completely of course, but it’s a vital step in this seemingly never-ending healing journey!