The vast majority of my falling has past. Thank goodness! For a long while (3 years) after re-learning to walk, during which I fell multiple times a day, I had many blue bruises, covering my very white legs.
So attractive.
I was reminded of my prolific past topples, a few days ago, when I (seemingly for no reason ((per usual))), lost my balance, & ended up unintentionally flying, to plaster my back against a wall in my bedroom. I don’t have nearly enough padding (particularly on my back) to make this meeting painless. Inevitably, it hurt, but nothing unbearable (my judgement of “bearable” has expanded considerably over the last few years of falling. All is relative.) So, after a pause, I went on with my day.
Because I abruptly met the wall, & was kept from ever falling to my knees. I was led to believe, that there was no lasting evidence of my loss of balance and my resulting run-in with the wall.
A few hours later, however, I was wearing a backless dress, out with my boyfriend, when he ran a hand down my back & exclamed “What happened to you?!” So… apparently there was tactile evidence, which made my slam apparent. I replied by sheepishly explaining my flying incident to him.
I was curious if there was visible evidence, to match the tactile & so, when I got home, I investigated my mid-back in the mirror. There was an obvious reason it hurt! I had broken the skin around 3 of the vertebrae on my spine, which had resulted in the coagulated blood. This was the evidence felt by my boyfriend -> my body’s natural healing practice.
This incident could be viewed as regression, by a harsh & unknowledgeable critic, but I’ve learned how incredibly unfair & demotivating that judgement would be. I chose to consider this then, an oppportunity to appreciate the great balance progress I’ve made.
My balance now, compared to my balance of 3 years ago, is remarkably steady/reliable.
After all, considering my current capabilities, in comparison to what they recently were, is the only accurate way that I can measure personal progress.
Progress of all levels must be celebrated, in order to foster more!