I require, much more assistance right now, to accomplish my daily tasks, than I did for any of my previous adult years. This amplified needed assistance is extremely uncomfortable for me. I’ve forever demanded independence (demanded, not requested & this is a wondrous weeding-out process, for everyone in my life.) If my independence doesn’t suit you, that’s fine, it’s better that we both know this up-front, as the future likely holds disagreements between us. I believe my can-do attitude, has fostered my independent sprit. I’m quite attached to independence.
Even though at present (progression is fairly constant, although it seems to move at the rate of molasses – especially when witnessing it, first hand.) I’m more capable than I was, even a week ago, but this tortiously slow pace of progression, is, frankly, –> depressing.
Now I truly understand what the saying “can’t see the forest through the trees” means. The forest is my longer term existence, while the trees are daily tasks, many of which are (as I alluded to previously) ridiculously, and often surprisingly, difficult.
This, forces me to decide between accepting severe depression or laughing at myself. Tough choice ;). A good sense of humor, and the willingness to not take myself so seriously, certainly helps.
A brain injury (forever with me) offers conflicting desires. I feel that I’ve been disconnected from my world for a long-bit & therefore want to re-engage, in a myriad of ways. I have abbreviated energy at my disposal right now though, to do so. This reality necessitates prioritization. Simplicity, as well as prioritizing, supports feeling successful. Accomplishing more complex things, inversely, offers me, a sense of frustration.
I’m all-the-more thankful for, people’s help. Their unprovoked willingness to be helpful, is very appreciated.