A grace test arrives when you least expect it & therefore didn’t think to prepare. I think that’s why this test is so effective. You’re required to make snap-to decisions about your well-being, You have to be incredibly wise (because this is your life!) You’re well-being (in my case) is at steak. I’d be tempted to think: well of course you’re graceful, when you’ve recently (well this is relative & is where my faulty memory comes into play- it’s been 2 years), been in a beautiful place (the yoga farm), learned tp be self sustaining + many of the people you encountered on a daily basis, cultivate graceful priorities. Can you even picture an ungraceful yogi in your mind? I can’t. If they’ve shown that kind of prioritization & dedication to wellness, wholeness, understanding & ease of movement…. Well,.that imbues a certain level of grace.
Granted, I encountered a devastating situation @ a yoga camp… But, truthfully, I don’t associate the yoga camp with sorrow. I think it’s actually quite beautiful that I was imbued w/ the lessons & physical health (probably the best of my life) provided there, prior to my accident. I’m currently learning the most important lesson of my life, thus far, as a result of something that happened while at the yoga camp. So, what to do now?
Embrace. Embrace this change, this gargantuan load of learning I’ve received & all the new mental pathways I’m challenged to create, as a result of this alteration to my life-style. If anything, this has brought me closer to my practice. In fact -BRB – asanas are calling my name & my empty mat feels lonely, I can tell, all of this talk of yoga has wonderful repercussions…
My parents informed me that I thanked everyone while at the hospital. I am truly grateful for their help. The janitors, for instance, who are very seldom thanked wholly enough for their service: I called 1 of them over to my bedside and said thank you…(now I could invent a purposeful continuation of that sentiment for this piece, or I could just choose to be honest.) I’m not sure why, exactly, but this experience is teaching me allot about transparency. I crave it now. I value honestly, for a selfish reason. When speaking our truth, we have the best chance of getting what we truly desire. If we fool ourselves, how will other people in our lives, know precisely what we really want, deep down?
I think honesty & acceptance are the biggest facilitators of grace. With these 2 things in place, how can you not enjoy a fulfilling life?