you know, it actually makes sense, now that I consider it thoroughly. My senses took a hiatus & therefore they’re now craving activation. For instance: i feel things more deeply now (hugs feel incredibly nurturing and loving).This intensity is both good and bad. It’s wonderful to experience positive things more deeply, and my community ensures that I have plenty of positivity to experience= (thank you.) But I also experience negative things more profoundly (which sort-of makes me feel like a child). When I truly & deeply mull things over, many times I realize that the thing I felt was an affront to me, really wasn’t about me at all.
This realization makes me feel better but also rather silly. I feel as though I’m growing up all over again, because in many ways, I am. For a short time I felt like a child. Now (eh hum) I think I’m reliving puberty, which means craving independence & friends. 2 things I am severely lacking right now.
Because my mind is seldom still now (something I’m unused to — I got my TBI at a yoga and meditation camp after-all) and very little is more still than meditation – body and mind 🙂 My new therapist gave me a wonderful tool, however, for meditating with an active mind = count she suggested. This keeps the mind active, entertained and gives it something to focus on, while still keeping it still and only thinking of numbers (which, generally, honestly, is kind-of a snooze-fest for me anyways – always has been.)
I have yet to try this counting technique, I’m eager though.