I find it ironic actually, that I received a brain injury while at a yoga camp. I’ve never enjoyed working out. Now drawing this association, (yoga camp = brain injury) isn’t helpful for my activeness. Granted, I think it’s likely self-perpetuated. For me, easily so, It’s disheartening. But because of the abnormality in my walk – slower (I’m truly worried about crossing the cross-walk before it starts counting down!) and that my right side (like all of my body on the right – do to the coma) is substantially slower than my left – it’s visibly noticeable. (I used to be a waitress after all – so I’m quite used to being fast-moving) and therefore this change isn’t just abnormal, to me it’s depressingly so.
The down-ward spiral of my mood is also something I need to address now. Now that the “big tasks” are out of the way – hence awaking from the coma – I can focus on the more nuanced things, like my mood.
Back to exercise (you can likely tell that this subject isn’t common-place for me to consider) I looove yoga of course, but that doesn’t do it. Sure, it’s generally great for endurance & flexibility, but a normal stride? Unfortunately – I think not. I therefore have decided to join a gym.
– that’s generally my mood about working out. Let alone paying to work out. For me, that’s like paying to be tortured.OK, I have to admit, mood does improve when you’re in good shape. That’s what endorphins are great for, no?
From Web MD: “Endorphins act as analgesics, which means they diminish the perception of pain.”
I’m hoping the pain they’re referring to is mental as well as physical. I would like to experience what’s referred to as “runner’s high”. So, I think working out will be great for me, all-around.