I must give my friends & family credit now, as I don’t even know how to deal with this effectively (even with all of the symptomatic information) so how would they? If anything, all of the symptomatic information is even more confusing. It certainly doesn’t help that I essentially have a “stranger in a strange land” feeling (PS I’ve never absorbed this book. I think it’s time). I’m unhappy and grossly unfulfilled. It truly is no mystery to me why. Yes I’m “home” but I’m not where I’ve chosen to live for the last many years 😦 and whenever I attempt to speak of this lack of fulfillment with my community here, I’m met with massive resistance- Im basically informed that for success, “I’ve got to straighten up and fly right.” Basically just work my but off 😦 Yeppp I’m already doing that, it doesn’t really feel like a choice at this point.
So apparently, that’s the 1 thing that remains consistent: work…Oh Joy! I’m not unique – although I have noticed some people are… essentially workaholics. That’s cool 🙂 but I prefer balance. Hence, my great love of yoga :). Not sure if that’s a relevant tie, but I’d like it to be, as that would give this whole experience consistency and some deeper level of meaning.